Thursday, August 13, 2015

Happiness is Obtainable

I've recently been trying to make a bunch of decisions and I've come to an impasse. It's like all the choices I have sound good, but it's the different paths they will lead me down that concerns me. Do I want to do what makes me happy, but is essentially a shorter path with more uncertainty at the end of the road or do I play it safe and take the path that last longer, helps me more in the long run, but essentially makes me feel like another clog in the wheel? Is sacrificing self happiness worth independent stability?

Ah life, what it throws at us is wonderful and scary. It can make our dreams come true, teach us important lessons, or just allow us to live. But how do we know what is the right choice and what isn't? Can every choice be correct? It's like, if you choose to go right then whatever happens on the right path is what happens and can you really go back and say, "I wish I would have gone left instead?" What if you did go left, you wouldn't actually know how the right path would turn out, so the left path would basically be the correct path for you to choose. Maybe I'm being too philosophical. Maybe there is no correct path or answer. Maybe I just need to follow my instincts, my gut.

I used to believe that there should be no regrets, because really, what is the point of reflecting on what could have been instead of what is now? Why do we feel regret? Is it ingrained in us from a young age or do we watch our friends and loved ones constantly wishing something different had happened to them that we start to doubt the decisions we've made? I guess it's another nature vs. nurture thing. It's just frustrating. Maybe I'm just looking for the essential answer to the ultimate universal questions - what is true happiness and how do I obtain it? Maybe all I'll ever get is the answer: 42.

So, I guess I should just choose a path and be done with it. Either option will yield a result and in choosing a path, more pathways will open up. Maybe I'll think back and ponder if I should have zigged instead of zagged, but what will that actually do in the whole scheme of things? The past is the past and therefore the only way to move is forward. So, I guess I answered my own question. Maybe this helped some of you and maybe most of you just thought I'd smoked something. Either way, choose the path that makes you feel something, gives you butterflies, produces a spark or hope, or leads you on an adventure. Life is short, regret is useless, and happiness is obtainable.